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hmm...juz found out my previous post title was 笨蛋卢韦琪and 1 of my cute cute cousin oso post her title as 笨蛋卢璴旋 in her blog wor.. so cute~~ haha..what a coincidence..but i think v both are ben in differ level. i'm the who ben in term of keep leaving my hp and wallet bhind whenever go to work. but hers 1, hmm....no comment. kaka..nothin to blog actually, tats y so wuliao to talk abt this ben dan thingy.. hope those who reading it won't hav the intention of bang me to the wall..hahaa..nitez every1..

        OMG!! lately i've been bothered by those so called "password"!! my godness...know y? my work, lots of passwordSSS got to be bear in mind. frankly, none of them are set in my mind rite now. hterefore, i've jot them down in a notepad which i am not suppose to do so. bt for my own sake, its just to play safe for myself. but AGAIN, i've forgotten my maybank account and its LOCKED! due to the security purposes..WTH...~!~@~ i have to go to the bank to unlock my account entirely.. tot my day wasn't black after all, but.......jus found out my VM machine is once again locked due to my poor lousy memory..i lost everything in it.. i was like... DAMN!! what happened to me lately? getting older or over stress of my work? it can't be..i'm stil young wei...im only 22(goin to be 23). i am wondering should i get some treatment,therapy in order to boost up my memorizing power? hmm...or, or i miss my Uni life so much keep on recalling bek those moments i spent wif frens? bf? the ppl i hate? i have no life style ever since i started my 1st day work in hp. my daily routine, 8.30am sitting in front of pc, on msn, browse fb for few moment, and start to work. 5.50pm, not yet finish my work coz of my freshness to the office. have to catch up 1 by 1 and digest it against my will. meeting? three times a week, 3 hours each to get me involved. and yet, my the only rest day of the week, --> NONE. 7 days work in d office, facing the same pc, same faces, and same toilet. >.<' sat & sun aren't my favourite day anymore. they are my unofficial work day instead.. my boss:" good motion,keep it up!." me:" =.=' "

       i really boring towards my lifestyle rite now, nothin more i can do but keep working and earn money. i wish to bring my mum for traveling, i wish to own a pda phone, i wish i can wear variety of pretty clothes to work, i wish i can build up a good relationship wif all colleagues, i wish no company politics in my office, i wish our country is virus free( say NO to H1N1), i wish my life can spark up and not that dull at all. i wish to go US too......i wish to go KLIA to board on a plane, go everywhere i want to..i am dreaming obviously~~by the way, stil trying hard to get into my VM machine, attempt failure..does any1 know the solution without reformat everythin over again? i am so sick of reformating pc la wei....ish..

终于，我终于能顺利渡过难关冲出MMU了！Yeah..!我很感激身边的朋友对我的关怀，当然也很感激他为我做过的一切。虽然他觉得这一切都是值得，可是我内心不曾劈开我对他的愧疚。。我觉得自己也很犯贱，明明知道不可能为什么还要对他死缠烂打？我要停止这一切过分与残忍的对待。不过话说回来，不知不觉上班已有一个礼拜多了。感觉上它的workfield跟我的major有大不同，可是对我来说这会是个新体验吧。许多人跑来问我我的工作是做什么的，好吧，就乘着这个机会一一告诉大家好了。我的工作范围都会绕着Client/Server得东西咯！例如，AD啊，Infrastrucutre啊，database啊，等等这类的咯。有够烦人的，以为完成了Degree学位开始工作就不会再读书。可万万没想到我个公司竟然还提供Training！给它渣到。。每个星期不知有做不完的工作而且还要上课作assignment，然后还要一个个上去present。不知道这是件好事还是坏事啦！与同事们的相处大致上还好，工作在多元种族的环境下咯。也不时听到许多八卦新闻，如果工作到累了想休息一会儿的话，不妨去打听一下新鲜滚热辣的新闻咯！呵呵。。最值得一提的是我的工作部门全都是女生，而且还是美女勒！算我在外。。不过与我们同一层楼办公室的其他senior都是男生咯。。上天对我的眷恋还蛮不错的嘛，工作到累了，看一下哪里有帅哥就算再怎样辛苦都是值得了。哈哈。。不说了，工作去咯。。tata..

现在是凌晨四点多，我睡不着。原因我最近都在白天里冬眠，我也不晓得为什么那么爱睡。所以打算温习功课咯，不过啊，现在的我却坐在电脑面前再次部落格了起来。嘻嘻。。突然间觉得我会很舍不得在我大学四年里所认识到的朋友们，一想到考完最后一张考卷时就是我要向他们一一说再见的时候了。不知道为什么心里都会有一丝丝的悲伤。人真的是最感性的动物，所有的情感都会表露不一的。而昨晚我看了南京大屠杀的纪录片，我的心顿时揪了起来。每当那些老公公老婆婆诉说他们在那时痛苦不堪的经历时我的眼泪都会一颗颗不受控制的掉了下来。日本人真的很可恨，他们也有家人与朋友为什么就不会设身处地的为别个国家的人民着想呢？他们真的是冷血的吗？本是来自一家的黄皮肤，龙的传人，为什么他们能够酱无情地把别人的生命看得那么不值钱哪？不过事情已经过了那么久，如果中国人到现在还那么的耿耿于怀的话，我想战争不会有停止的一天。所以我真的希望世界永远都会和平，远离所有的灾难。不要再有悲伤的事情发生。人虽然感性，可却是那么的脆弱。我每天会为了所谓的生活在痛苦的世界里埋怨，可为何不去想想在别个角落可能有人会因为得到一个小馒头而高兴到手舞足蹈？快乐，是件多么容易的事啊！可又有多少人能够彻底的领悟到它想带给我们真真的含义呢？它是属于我们每个人的，只要我们先学会“知足”。。那么我是个快乐的人吗？。。

刚刚游览回自己之前在这里的部落格，才发现以前的我是多么可爱与天真（贬义词）。不过也让我捧肚大笑，很是回味。。回想在大学生涯的四年里的种种，真得很让我怀念。伤心的，开心的，疯癫的，一一对我来说都是我珍贵的回忆。我也从中学习成长了不少，以前一意孤行的我已离我远去。现在只留下以前刁蛮过后的‘苏州史’。哈哈。。再过不久我就要毕业找工了，总觉得机会不大。没有优越的学历，没有良好的人缘关系谁会酱笨雇佣我啊？有学长告诉我他因经济不景气而不幸被裁员了，到现在也还没找到新工作，让我听了有点怕怕。不敢毕业了，还想再读书。不过并不是电脑或是business,而是想这次朝着我的梦想出发。想当个全职的舞蹈员或是飞行人员，妈咪也都赞成的，只是如果要迈向这两方面发展确实有点困难咯。先说舞蹈好了，人家从小就锻炼好体力能够跳出一段优美的舞蹈。而我呢？中学才开始学弯腰一字马，真是笑大人家的口啦！现在叫我跳几下就喘得要命，还真以为自己是十八二十二么？接下来就是飞行人员，眼睛有近视身材又体胖，不止笑大人家的口，还会把人家的眼给弄瞎掉。。=.='' 不过无论如何，有句话是非常应景的，那就是船到桥头自然就会直啦。 暂时不去向那么多。。有够烦人的！